THE ONE WHERE SHE FINALLY QUITS

Monday, April 27, 2020

I've been letting myself down. Not giving myself enough credit or belief that I can do something. I was debating whether or not to post this because it's something that I see on myself as shameful but I guess accepting that and trying to change is something to be proud of and receive recognition for, right?

I've been a smoker now for 10 years. The only time in my life that I remember giving in to peer pressure and it's followed me for a decade now. I've read a lot of books about addiction- Chasing The Scream by Johan Harri is one of my all-time favourites. Even though I try to understand the issue it's always been something I struggled to label myself with. I guess because I'd seen the horror of alcohol addiction with my own eyes within a past relationship and I found it hard to give myself the same label as someone who was having seizures due to withdrawal, making early morning trips to the shops for another bottle of Vodka, along with countless trips to the hospital.



Am I an addict? Well, yes. I've been causing unreasonable and unnecessary harm to my body all for a quick fix of something that if I'm honest hasn't been something I've enjoyed for a long time.

I've finally made the decision that it's time to stop. My house is free of all tobacco paraphernalia and my partner is quitting with me too.

So why am I making this post? I guess it's to keep myself accountable and to keep the reasons I'm doing this at the forefront of my mind.

HEALTH

I think health reasons are among the main reasons people decide to quit smoking but I didn't want to have to wait until a trip to the hospital tells me I've done permanent damage to myself. I have a tight chest a lot of the time, I'm coughing (even in intimate moments) and I cannot exercise to the same degree I once could as a result of this. My body is giving me all the signs that it's time to stop, it's about time I started listening to it.

BE MORE PRODUCTIVE

After even a few hours of my new normal, I already realised just how much smoking has affected my get-up-and-go. I'd fill periods of boredom, hunger, and anxiety with a stick I thought would fix everything for a short while. I've put off things I need to do because I needed a 'break' and honestly, it's just zapped me of so much energy.

PROVE TO MYSELF I CAN DO IT

More than anything I just want to prove to myself that I can do it. Although I've made many changes to unhealthy habits through the years, smoking is something I've constantly battled with, to the point that I've convinced myself I cannot do it. But I can, and I will.

So here's to a smoke-free life. I hope I can look back on this post in a years time and thank myself for taking this step.

Have you quit smoking? What helped you stay away from cigarettes?

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  1. Such an honest and open post, I love it! x

    B | https://www.bobbisblog.co.uk/

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    1. Thanks Bobbi, I'm glad you enjoyed reading!

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  2. Fantastic that you quit! Be proud of yourself!

    www.susanberkkoch.com/blog

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    1. I am very proud, it's a lot of hard work though haha! Thanks for reading :)

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  3. Well done for sharing this. I'm not a smoker myself nor an addict of anything so maybe cant relate but I can imagine it was difficult for you to make a big change from something you've often been doing. All the best with staying smoke-free and clean. Keep us updated on how you're getting on too.


    Johnny | Johnny's Traventures
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    1. Absolutely, it takes a lot to change anything that's that ingrained in your life though doesn't it? Thanks for reading and for your kind words

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  4. Awesome! Good for you I wish you all the best x

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  5. I'm so happy for you! I love how open and honest you are in this post, you should be very proud of yourself! Thanks for sharing! I wish you nothing but the best! :)

    melissakacar.blogspot.com

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    1. Hey Melissa, I appreciate the kind words. Holding myself accountable is important, let's hope I can just stay on track!

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  6. Congratulations on quitting! As an ex-smoker myself I know how hard it is to stop (it took me three goes!) It sounds like you're in the right place mentally and physically to quit for good this time though, which is over half the battle. Good luck, and don't be too hard on yourself, you can do this :) Lisa x

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  7. It is great that you have made the decision to stop smoking. It is important to weigh your options and the benefits you gain. It is also great for saving money too! You can spend on other things :). Giving you all of the positivity you need to get through this~

    Nancy ♥ exquisitely.me

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  8. So proud of you for sharing this girl!

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